If you saw my post about wanting to lose weight where I posted “before” photos of myself, then you know food and body image has been a struggle for me since about the age of 10. You may also notice I deleted that post with those photos because, oh my god what was I thinking?!
The update, however is that I lost about 25 lbs!! There will be no “after” pictures because I’m over the over-sharing thing.
I’m talking about food and body image today because I’ve had another growth spurt in this area and I wanted to share… When I recently lost those 25 lbs, I was on a mission to eat super clean, exercise a lot and get my six-pack back. My husband was whispering to me that I was being extreme (again), but I didn’t listen (again).
Thankfully, I realized my extreme ways again before it was too late. This time, instead of reverting back to my laissez-faire ways (aka, self deprecating) and gaining the weight back, I caught myself and realized I wanted to give moderation a try. What if I didn’t stress about food and how much I’m exercising or how thin I wanted to be, and just kept active and ate real food (no fried or fast-food and limited sweets)…? While this may seem so easy and obvious for most, it’s actually the first time I have been willing to give it a try for more than a day. It’s been a few weeks now and I feel like a weight is lifted. I will try my best to keep it going….
I wake up in the morning and go running with my dog for about 2.5 – 3 miles. I don’t go to Crossfit or to TRX anymore… While I truly loved those workouts, I just can’t do anything that drives me to extremes. Trying to fit in all those workouts, plus some basic cardio, was exhausting. I have to keep things simple. I have so much fun running with Bishop, but never thought it was a “good enough” workout for me. Lame.
I’m eating clean, real food, not perfect food. By “perfect” I mean, no carbs, no bad fats, limited good fats and no desserts. I really don’t think it’s a breakfast like the one above that makes me gain weight (real eggs with whole grain toast, Balade light butter and organic jelly)… It’s the binges, the processed food and the sugar that destroys my health and my confidence. But believe it or not, this breakfast feels like a spurge to me.
I would love to hear your thoughts, especially if you’re in the same boat. It will always be a struggle, we just have to keep growing and work through it, right?