I’m taking the advice of one of my favorite bloggers and going to get a little personal on this blog. PHM’s foundation is in design, yes. But, since I’m a designer and it’s my blog… That sort of makes my life relevant here I suppose. Here we go…

As I mentioned in this post, Lamont and I recently moved back to Los Angeles after spending some time in San Diego unemployed (not by choice). He started a new job in L.A. a little over a year ago and I started mine about 9 months ago. Things are finally settling down, but let’s just say the last 16 months were challenging. (One day, I’ll get a little more into what each of us does, but for now all you need to know is that we are both creatives.)

You can’t move (especially to Los Angeles) without some money saved, which you can’t do without jobs. So, even though we’ve had our new jobs for a little while now, we actually just moved into our apartment in June (which also happened to be our 1-year anniversary). Before moving to our new apartment, we were staying with a friend in his 2-bedroom apartment. Since he worked from home, we needed to be out by 7:30am and couldn’t return until 7:30pm in order to respect his work/life privacy. Guess what this meant…. no cooking! Not that I really like cooking or that I’ve ever had awesome eating habits (consistently), but we developed some pretty bad ones during this time. And although we’ve been settled in our own apartment for a few months now, bad habits are hard to break. Lamont is 6’2″ and a guy. I’m 5’2″ and a girl. Guess who put on more weight?

I blame thirteen years of gymnastics for going up and down in weight my entire life, but I currently weigh the most I ever have and it’s really bothering me. Not just because I can’t fit into most of my clothes and don’t even look good in the ones that do fit… Or because I’m used to feeling athletic and this body actually feels strange. But mostly, because of the lack of control that it took to get here. I hate that I LET this happen. I have some control issues (no need to ask Lamont)… and it really bothers me to feel so out of control.

So, I’m saying it here… I refuse to make a promise to be perfect and get back to my college weight (or even wedding weight), but I do vow to take care of myself. Make better decisions. And when I make bad ones, at least do it with some amount of control. Lamont and I have both felt sluggish and out of shape, we’ve discussed options like Veganism and we might discuss it again in the near future. But, for now we just want to make smarter decisions, not necessarily cutting anything out. Oh, and EXERCISE consistently!

This was my first week of running and eating healthy, I plan on getting through the weekend without a problem because I already feel so much better. I certainly don’t look any better, but I FEEL better and that’s what this is all about…

I would love to hear from you if you’re having (or have had) similar issues, especially since I have plenty for you to choose from. I also welcome tips from those of you who maintain a healthy lifestyle.